Day 2 & 3

 I'm reporting from the end of Day 3. Both days since my last writing were a success.

On Day 2 I was a wreck. But because I normally felt like shit how to handle that feeling was right in my wheel house; I stayed in bed. I was glued to my phone and to my pillows with a headache that felt like a cross between dehydration and sugar withdrawal. I could not think straight and only came to that conclusion when I failed to turn in an important report on time. I left it until the last minute confident that it would be easy. I was met with a different version of brain fog than I am used to; not from kidney failure but from ketoflu. 

I craved salt and food experiences. I satiated both with buillion cube tea and 3 hours of non-stop mukbangs on youtube, respectfully. It was the most epic meal. I had cuisines from all over the world and there came a point where I was shockingly satisfied. 

This impulse to experience food was one that I always satisfied with actual food. I was always disappointed when the food came to an end. I wanted the experience to last longer so I would go for seconds and thirds. In that regard I have always been a maximalist. Yesterday I realized that impulse at its core is not about eating, but about thinking? Maybe. I will have to wait for that thought to visit me again, that I may get to know it better. At about 11pm, I got tired and gladly surrendered to sleep. 

Today, Day 3, was amazing. I really lived. 

I realized that black coffee from Dunkin, even with unsweetened flavors added is horrible. But my body craved an iced coffee and I gave it gladly. It got me out of bed and on my way back home i just kept on driving. I explored my town and I cried. It was so beautiful. 

I needed the sun today and I needed the journey. They filled me. 

I did not think about food today even thought today was thanksgiving. I gave thanks. I was comforted by thought of the families enjoying their meals as I was greeted by empty trees, easy traffic lights and smooth sailing on the main thoroughfares. I explored. I'm ending my day satisfied. This is the best Thanksgiving I have ever had. 

On a more practical note, I introduced some tinctures to deworm myself. I will take them daily until they are finished. I also had 4 shots of pure goji berry juice. I had only one small cup of tea and about 2 servings of electrolytes. My water consumption is below 2 liters today.